The Price of Admission

distant memory lurks hurting
ever ready to batter me senseless
coconut cartoon headwound
opens up for me
another day

I imagine CCTV around me
in the 'part meant'
capturing me
making intelligent conversation
to multiphrenics
I project
to protect

blanketing the futile
disturbing truth
isolated behind
carefully placed
masking
Taped on by experience
just so i can ventuure outside
plastered to protect & survive
this open wound
can never be sterile

all avenues of escape
in virtual enshitiffied
shopping mall
are now dead ends

littered by hypocriticals
only shaking hands to sell
from cell to cell
never looking up
or even faintly noticing
for sale signs
replaced as
distracted vacancy

the bars
all closed down
line window lenses
of fraudulent sensation

will I always walk alone?
seems to be the case officer

sometimes it's achingly tragic
mostly i titter at
my nonsensical farce

try to celebrate
being a being